Rounding the corner

On November 8th I got the absolute priviledge of attending a worship conference located in Virginia Beach. There were 7 of us from the church that went. I had no idea what God was about to do in my life. There were a couple of significant things going on that week for me.. Monday was the start of my final training week for the half marathon. I had worked for months to reach the goal of running that long distance and I had come to the end of the road. We arrived at the conference on Monday morning and I was immediately blown away by the worship that was happening in that place. BEAUTIFUL! Worship lasted for about an hour and as we sang, I felt the Lord speak to me... this will not only be a place of learning for you, but I am about to do a deeper healing in you as well. At 4:00pm, we all gathered in the main auditorium and were told that we were to get alone with God. I immediately took out my pen and paper and began to write. I knew that this would be an appointment with God that I would not soon forget. On the previous Thursday, I had a counselling appointment. Anger has been an emotion that I tend to avoid. I don't like it, but I have been angry for months now. My counselor wanted me to give my anger a voice. Tell God what you are angry about. He wants to take it from you. As I sat alone with God, quiet music was playing..I began to write it all out. Tears were flowing. I was letting it go..FINALLY. Once I was finished I told God that as mad as I had been, I was glad that I belonged to Him. That I was not alone. I began to pray for my girls at that point. God reminded me of scripture that He gave me months before from Isaiah 54. "Great will be the peace of your children, your children will be taught by the Lord". Almost immediately, one of the worship leaders said... "I need to share a vision that I am getting... There is a little girl in a window. She has long blonde hair..she is wondering where her daddy has gone." Everything in me broke. Someone began to sing.. You are not abandoned.. you are not alone. I let everything go and then I did something that I haven't done since my husband left on March 1st. I gave Jesus my heart. I have been holding onto it for months. Yes, I have allowed God to lead and guide me through this time, but I have been protecting my heart...afraid to even trust God with it. It now COMPLETELY belonged to Him.
Once that hour was up, I felt lighter than I had in months! I felt a freedom. WOW. The next morning, I went down to the beach for my final training run. Just a short 3 miles. It was 6am. The sun was just coming up. I ran with a new freedom. I ran beside the ocean... I ran at sunrise. A new day. A GOD moment. I'm making it through this pain.. with JOY. This joy that can only be experienced when you know the God of the Universe in an intimate way.
I went home from that trip with a new excitement! I have rounded the corner. I feel like something new is happening in my life. I'm being challenged in new ways. I can't wait to see what He does next. Every day is new. Every day is different. Every day is HIS.
What about You? Have you given Him your heart lately? Not just a piece here and there, but ALL of it? There is a God who is crazy in love with You. He wants to reveal Himself to you. Will you let him?

You are loved.