Exposure

If you know the Short girls at all..you know that we LOVE to take pictures. LOOOVE to take pictures. Just look at our facebook pics..you will see. The key to a great picture is the proper exposure. Perfect lighting. I'm thinking about that this morning as I feel the invitation of God to enter into His light. In order to enter into His light...I might have to expose some dark areas in my life. I'm gonna have to get vulnerable and allow my flaws to be seen. He is not trying to point us out in front of others in a negative way- to make us feel embarassed. What He is asking us to do is out of His love for us. Come into the LIGHT my child! I want to love and touch those places in you that have been hurt by others. My plan is to prosper you and not to harm you.
I'm learning trust again. I spent many years putting my hope and trust in people. Think about it this way...would you feel comfortable with someone putting all of their hope and trust in YOU?? Ohhhh goodness... I can't even imagine! I mean....I would hate it if I let them down. I would feel terrible. Yes I want to be trusted. I know, however, that I am human and sometimes I miss the mark. God however does not ever miss it! He says TRUST in ME! I'm not out here to hurt you! I LOVE YOU!!!! Today, I have come to understand why I am feeling so unsure of everything. It's because I'm trying to look at God through the eyes of my past hurts. I'm looking at Him through a clouded lens. I really DO believe that God wants me to have the MOST amazing life...but sometimes I respond to Him as a person and NOT God. Just yesterday I was having a conversation with a BEAUTIFUL woman of God. I was sharing some desires of my heart with her. She says...God does not give you a desire and then dangle it out in front of you on a string ....isn't this pretty?? Wouldn't you LOVE to have this??? and then never give it to you . He is NOT like that! Well..she had to tell me this because I have been asking Him...am I worth giving that to? I know I am! YES!
What I have to do now is to keep stepping into the light. Keep allowing God to expose and heal those areas of my life that have been broken. He knows that I long to see others free! To see them come alive in Christ. To OVERCOME! This past Sunday night, I went to a Bible study. At one point in the night...they asked me to read a scripture....Isaiah 61. " The spirit of the Lord is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom to the captives and release darkness from the prisoners....." I began to weep in front of everyone. I wept because this is my heart of hearts!! I KNOW that He has this call on my life. I also know that I must fully expose the dark areas of my own life. I want to be WHOLE...so that I can help to heal the brokenhearted with His love. I don't want to bleed on the brokenhearted. I will if I don't heal. Sooo...today I choose TRUST Him. I choose to trust Him even if it means that someone has to see my something not so pretty come out of me. WHEW....this ain't easy...but I wouldn't DARE trade it for ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!