I think we can all agree that one of the biggest sacrifices made in the Bible, before Jesus came, was when Abraham laid his son on the alter. I cannot begin to imagine or fathom what he must have been feeling. Sometimes we tend to look at the people in the Bible as a "character". The truth is ......they were REAL people with REAL emotions. Working in the church, I have seen many people who have lost loved ones, but there is NOTHING like seeing someone lose a child! I'm a mom and I refuse to even think about losing one of my children. The pain would be too intense. The amazing thing is that Abraham loved God enough that he was willing to do what God asked of him. Isaac was Abraham's dream. Having a son was a dream to him and God called Abraham to lay it down on the alter and sacrafice his dream. Give it back- no questions asked. I'm beginning this blog like this because I THINK God is asking something of me.
For quite some time now, I have had a growing heart for the nations. Years ago I was in an organization called YWAM. YWAM stands for Youth With A Mission. It's a HUGE mission organization with locations all over the world and they are equipping missionaries to go into ALL the world and take the gospel. When I was in YWAM, I began to get a heart for the world. Due to circumstances, I did not continue on in the organization. I went home....where life was safe and comfortable. I got a job and began to work and just two years later, I found myself married and I began that part of my life. Since my separation and divorce, God has been writing this incredible story of my life. Along the way, I have met the MOST amazing people! Back in February, South Africa walked into my life and has been seeming to take over my heart in a "hectic"way. That's a word that my friend Trish uses all the time. She lives in Cape Town. Anyway... my heart has been growing for missions. And I don't believe it stops in South Africa. I believe that my heart is beatting for the brokenhearted ALL over the world! So what does that mean today?
I have a couple of dreams...my first one is to go to South Africa. I need to go and discover what God wants me to do. I need to meet my mentor, Wilma. I need to meet Trish, and if Westley were there...I would need to meet him to. These people mean the WORLD to me! They have challenged my life in ways that I have never imagined.
My second dream is this and the one that I would like to focus this blog upon......I have a longing to find the man of my dreams. I don't like being single- I won't lie. I wish I had the backing of another parent helping me to raise and discipline my daughters. I wish I had strong arms to wrap around me at night when I come home after working all day. I want someone to love on and spoil. I want to laugh and to dream with someone. I want to be in ministry with him. BUT....I want God more. Tonight I feel like God is asking something of me. I feel like God is asking me to lay this particular dream on the alter and to focus fully on my calling. He may OR may not give me this dream back. I may or may not end up with the man of my dreams. I am asking God to take me sooooo very deep in Him that I wouldn't miss this in my life! More than the other....this is a HUGE sacrafice for me. It means...I die to the fact that I would ever have anyone in my life. I don't want to live an ordinary life...I want to be GOD's Best...I want EXTRAORDINARY! So tonight...I'm before the Lord. I am laying down and relinquishing my right to a relationship. I am accepting the calling. I will go WHEREVER it is that He would ask me to go. I will do WHATEVER it is that He desires for me to do. Oh Lord, I ask for the NATIONS!!! That's the phrase that began this whole process. The desire of my heart to have a man in my life became an idol to me. I will NOT have ANY idols befor the Lord!!! I fix my gaze upon HIS glorious beauty and say....as much as I want that God.... I want YOU MORE!!!!!!!!
What about you?? Do you have something in your life that gets in the way of what God might call you to do? Take a good hard look....that is not easy to do! That means you gotta get really truthful with yourself. BUT the reward and the freedom and peace that comes is overwhelming! Soo...lay it down. Give it back to God and LIVE!!!!
You are loved beyond what you could ever dream or imagine!!
JOY ;)
2 comments:
all i can say is WOW!!! the most incredibke thing God did for us was SACRIFICE and that brought the world hope, life, a saviour and redemption. It was the the most intense thing that anyone has ever done in the history of the worlds existence and yet it was done, God didnt way options, he didnt contemplate because of his feelings, he did it because he knew what this world was going to end up in and how much life we needed and the greatest thing we can give back to God is our lives and that comes with the greatest SACRIFICE....God doesnt want half of us or our lips(what we can say to him) but our complete lives and everything that goes with us ..the only time when we will see the hand of God in our lives is when we are totally surrendered and that means sacrificing everything we are, everything we have, everything we desire, everything we dream, everything we hope for and put it all in the hands of God with complete trust that He knows the desires of our hearts and promises that he will not harm us but bring us hope and a future and if we delight in him, that he will give us the desires of our hearts...God is not a God of subtraction but multiplication and addition and the most amazing destiny...having the knowledge that God said it and he WILL do it, we dont need to fear because the only one that knows our tomorrow is God, we dont, we dont know whats gna happen in the next 2minutes seconds but God does and it was pre destined and planned for us and so with that trust, we dont need to fear what is going to happen or what wont happen because if we HAVE SACRIFICED and completely surrendered We can have the confidence in the knowledge that ALL things work together for the good and that he is the rewarder of those who DILIGENTLY seek him with ALL our heart and that He is not a man that he should lie but gives us a future and destiny beyond our desires, beyond our dreams, beyond our everything!!! Sacrifice will show us how serious we are about God because it takes humility and a heart so after God with complete seriousness to put away all the things that we desire and pursue God and let him fulfill all the other things. It WILL be beyond our imagination and expectation. Christalicious...AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME blog....its a true step of faith and an amazing one because ITS TIME!!! its time that we get so serious about God that nothing else matters except him, his will, his plan and his purpose!! its really awesome angel face!! u will see the hand of God in ways that you have never before as u go on this journey of letting God DO and BE in your life completely and to the fullest!!.. keep strong and keep burning the flames of fire because that fire is coming in a migty way in ur life!!
Be blessed angel and know you have this on ur heart because God is going to birth something in u and through u and its time of preparation for what is coming. be excited, be expectant and continue being the amazing woman of God u are!! I love you!!
Christy I pray God gives you the desires of your heart. He loves you so much and wants the best for you. If you always put Him first how can you go wrong? His desires may not be your desires though.
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